Sep-Nov ‘10 Recap
- in a relationship with a great guy that’s gonna go away for 7 months. i’m madly in love with this guy. things are going so great and he’s leaving in 3 weeks (i seriously don’t know what’s wrong with my head).
- finally talked to the office eye candy mentioned in the previous post.
- finishing my job at one place, will go to another.
- money trouble.
- too much going out
- caught a seemingly never ending flu
Waiting is painful. Forgetting is painful. But not knowing which to do is the worse kind of suffering.
July-Sep ‘10 Recap
Things that happened the past 90 days:
- saying goodbye to my former colleague/lover (for good now)
- make so many new friends in the new city
- new job
- new hang out places
- met a new office eye candy (matthew mcconaughey and hugh grant COMBINED, no kidding) truly a heaven sent.
- dating 2 guys, one said i love you
- living under one roof with family members (first time in three years)
- got another job offer (THANK BE TO GOD)
- feeling more and more mature
- spend more times with family
- smoke less
- drink so much less
- haven’t gone put partying since end of July
- going to church on weekly basis (starting to be a routine again)
I am in a very good place right now. i love my life. thanks GOD.
Life is…
…full of unexpected turn. i can NEVER imagined things that comes my way. always catch me by surprise.
sometimes i feel like life is turning its back on me. you know, when you’re having one of those days when everything, and by everything i mean when EVERY SINGLE THING that matters in your life falls apart.
but you know what’s good about having one of those days? i can always look forward to series and series of GREAT things that are going to happen to me. and as always, when they fall apart all at once, at some point things will go uphill all at once too!
LIKE RIGHT NOW!
and God, looking back, it feels AMAZING. and i am SO thankful for everything that has been.
once again i came out of my mess alive, to a bright BRIGHT days ahead of me.
God is so good. SO GOOD. i am blessed.
Life is
so beautiful these days, i am so truly blessed.
God is so good.
Things are going uphill
in my life, starting from yesterday.
i am so blessed, and i believe i am on the right track in my life right now.
sometimes i got distracted and overlooked that fact.
i am going to set my focus on a more important thing in my life. my new job.
i thank God for everything.
I Wish
that my heart could turn into a stone (metaphorically speaking, of course) so hard, it couldn’t be broken anymore.
my fragile, chinese porcelain like, heart, is seriously killing me. and it connects so well with my brain, sometimes it fucks my life up.
After a while you learn the subtle difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul, and you learn that love doesn’t mean leaning and company doesn’t mean security, and you begin to learn that kisses aren’t contracts and presents aren’t promises, and you begin to accept your defeats with your head up and your eyes open, with the grace of an adult, not the grief of a child, and you learn to build all your roads on today because tomorrow’s ground is too uncertain for plans. After a while you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much. So plant your own garden and decorate your own soul, instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers. And you learn that you really can endure… that you really are strong, and you really do have worth.
His sister, Megan, was like him that way. Beautiful and smart, she’d intimidated most of the boys she’d ever dated. For a long time, she had flitted from one guy to the next, but not out of vanity or flightiness. When he’d asked why she seemed unable to settle down, her answer had been straightforward: ‘There are guys who grow up thinking they’ll settle down some distant time in the future, and there are guys who are ready for marriage as soon as they meet the right person. The former bore me, mainly because they’re pathetic; and the latter, quite frankly, are hard to find. But it’s the serious ones I’m interested in, and it takes time to find a guy like that whom I’m equally interested in. I mean, if the relationship can’t survive the long term, why on earth would it be worth my time and energy for the short term?’
